WallaKarra appams

Here's a secret ... I don't look in the mirror . . I am so ashamed to see myself put on so weight. Being a mom of three and a brink of age 30 + . I feel so disgusted . But shortly , after reading Instagram stories on postpartum period ,I literally cried inside. I went through a lot . My first birth was like a huge party. Giving birth and naming ceremony of forty people which was followed by ladies judging on how fat I have become and the baby is so thin... And there was endless speeches on how the mother should do this and that... I wanted to run back to my teenage look. Really I was so ashamed of my body that I didn't get any support from nowhere. I wanted to fit into my jeans so badly that I started to diet after the ceremony. I got my figure back within a week !! And my poor baby was not fatty baby.. but alhamdullilah he was healthy boy. . After dieting ,which later I understood I never had to , I never put on weight at all , as much as I eat I was so thin . Baby boy never put in weight too.

Then all the lady folks of town would say that my milk was not so nourishing!! Can u guys believe it. .. I felt like punching such folks.
MIL would send me some halwas and ayurvedic medicines to put on weight now...yes  guys it was  for me !!!. I said to myself ...that's it. I took a Stern decision. I ate healthy and did yoga.
I fed my baby boy with love and care. No one can tell u how to be a good mum. That time I felt he was thin but now I pick his photos and I say hey look at the chubby boy in the pic,with people deciding how you look and you deciding that they are right is not going to stop you from falling down the path, so don't listen to what others have to say. I chose my path to believe in me and not others .
As @shabosphere says in her stories., My other two  babies are Google born and I am happy for that . I learnt a lot about pregnancy and kids health and I love my ever growing family.
But one thing to say and a pointer to all moms...
I am going to educate my son and daughter on this. She has to know everything from being a strong independent woman to a caring mum. And my son has to know how important it is to support wives during such periods of life. My mum was and is always shy to talk about such things to me even till today... But guys there is still so much that  the internet doesn't talk about ,so educate your kids.

Today's recipe is a simple appam . You can have it as it is or even have it with any curry . I have this every week and it's so nice to even carry it along while driving . I guess now all of you know why my weight speaks so much .

Recipe follows.

Ingredients

• 1 and 1/2  cups raw rice( .soaked for three hours )
• 1/2 cup cooked rice
• 1 carrot grated
• 2 green chilli chopped.

Method

• Grind the rice and cooked rice with little water to a  semi thick batter.
• Add the grated ingredients and stir well
• Add salt and mix well.
• Pour spoonful  batter into the Kara chatti and cook till done.
• Turn over the karra appams and brown the other side .
• The sides will be crispy.